One Route alum Liam Payne talks dependancy, suicidal ideation throughout boy band fame

The 27-year-old singer informed Steven Barlett on “The Diary of a CEO” podcast that a lot of his days have been full of “capsules and booze” and he had “moments of suicidal ideation.”

“Yeah. There’s some stuff that Ia??ve undoubtedly by no means spoken about to do with it. It was actually, actually, actually extreme. It was an issue,” the British star admitted. 

The 27-year-old was a part of One Route from 2010 to 2015 with different members Harry Types, Louis Tomlinson, Niall Horan, and Zayn Malik. He was simply 16 years outdated when the band shaped. 

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“Within the band… one of the simplest ways to safe us, due to how large wea??d acquired, was simply to lock us in our rooms. Whata??s within the room? A mini-bar,” he recalled. “So at a sure level I assumed, Ia??m simply going to have a party-for-one and that appeared to hold on for a few years of my life… It was wild but it surely was the one method you could possibly get the frustration out.”

The daddy-of-one mentioned he realized how unhealthy he seemed when pictures surfaced of himself on a ship in 2014. 

Liam Payne revealed he struggled with suicide ideation and dependancy points.??
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“There have been a number of photos of me on a ship and I used to be all bloated out and I name it my pills-and-booze face,” he described. Payne mentioned his face was “10 occasions larger” than it at present is.

Payne additionally confessed that whereas isolating at house in the course of the COVID-19 pandemic, he turned again to alcohol. 

“I did fear up till the previous few months,” he mentioned. “I believe lots of people had this identical form of factor, alcohol. It was getting earlier and earlier and simpler and simpler to go to.”

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Payne additional addressed what number of followers assume simply because he amassed a fortune, all issues are straightforward. 

“I used to be a director of a half-a-billion pound trade at 22. But when I’m making an attempt to pay automotive insurance coverage I’m ineffective. Choosing up my submit? I’m the worst individual on this planet. You might be deluded in your development,” he mentioned concerning how he does not have fundamental life expertise as a result of he all the time had another person caring for errands. 

The pop star added, “I nonetheless really feel like a baby in so some ways. There isn’t any hyperlink between cash and happiness. It’s a fable. Cash is the power to chill out on sure issues.”

(L-R) Niall Horan, Zayn Malik, Liam Payne, Louis Tomlinson, and Harry Types of One Route in 2014.??
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Payne lately ended his 10-month engagement to American mannequin Maya Henry. 

“That annoys me. I’ve simply not been superb at relationships. And I do know what my sample of issues is with relationships at this level,” he mentioned in reference to the break up.

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“I am simply not superb at them so I simply must work on myself earlier than I put myself on to anyone else.”

Payne shares a 4-year-old son, Bear, with British pop star and ex Cheryl. 

For those who or somebody you understand is having ideas of suicide, please contact the Nationwide Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255).